I have struggled with understanding what it means to surrender in the moment. This has been especially apparent in my athletic training and performance. I had always interpreted a surrender as a black hole. If I was to give into the fact that I did poorly, and accept it, then I felt I was givingContinue reading “Professional Athlete: From the Female Perspective”
Category Archives: Journal 1 ~ Emotions
I am a Big Bear
J1 E9 ~ Punitive Guilt: As a woman in my 50s, I have been battling with this inner and ongoing dissonance. From a young age, I was taught (by almost all aspects of my environment) what is considered “proper” as far as appropriate feminine behavior-what is acceptable and what is shameful. For example, the womenContinue reading “I am a Big Bear”
Not Trusting Myself
J1 E6 ~ Soul vs Ego: This is a question I have been asking myself a lot lately, am I going into mental health counseling as a career because I genuinely want to. I am always questioning whether or not I am on the right track in life, one of my biggest fears is thatContinue reading “Not Trusting Myself”
Anger: My Blockage
J1 E4 ~ Judgment: I have learned how, over the years, that my judgmental opinions can be very damaging to my relationships. I’ve been called spoiled. Not in the way of material things but in knowing what I want and getting angry when things do not go my way. My temper tantrums sometimes come inContinue reading “Anger: My Blockage”
Darkness
J1 E15 ~ Inside Out: You would be enveloped in darkness. So dark that the senses are useless. Lack of anything – Not silent,sound just doesn’t exist. It is dense, like a black hole. Nothing can escape, and it takes over anything thatcomes near it.I am there somewhere. Trapped. I have no body, yet allContinue reading “Darkness”